Kidney disease sucks

so yea, i figured that i can suck it up and write...maybe i was being lazy or uninspired...most of this shit i write at night or around 4 or 5 am...
thru the next few years the efx of the chemo and radiation were kind of small and unremarkable...id have to piss every 2 hours, more if i was drinking alot, there was occasional clots that fucking surprised the living hell outta me when they happened, i mean my piss stream would suddenly slow down and stop and then all of a sudden theres pressure like fuckin mad like a champagne cork getting ready to blow and then fuh-kin BANG!....damn i hated those..
then in 1989 i started walking with a noticable limp that started getting pretty bad, turns out my right femur was slipping out of joint at the top where it connects to my pelvis....this was from the damn radiation that had weakend the socket and what holds the femur in place, so in order to fix this shit i had to get a four and a half inch screw drilled into my hip and femur which is now pinning it in place...i dont limp anymore, it worked out great although i wonder if the pain ive been getting from the top of my ass down the back of my legs to the bottom of my feet is related....this is a fucking pain ive been getting since 1993, like 18 fucking years...it always seemed directly related to sex...after sex is supposed to be a really enjoyable experience and yes i experienced many awesome times but also just as many times afterwards firing down xcess amounts of useless tylenol, advil, whatever crap was on hand, hot as hell showers, wishing i had a jacuzzi with some fucking jets as powerful as a firehose...just to try and get some relief from the fucking pain that usually lasted hours and hours, im still on the hunt for the cause of this pain...honestly i think its related to the small membranes that are wrapped around my testicles, no shit ive looked it up, im probably wrong but....